Spiritual Awakening and long time no see

My blog is 14 years now 💦 I've neglected it but I always come back to read old posts and get those nostalgic feelings. Not only my writing, but from all the people I'm still following. A lot of people deleted their blog or stopped writing, just like me. I've heard it's gaining popularity again 👀I hope it's true because it's so much better than social media. 

There are not only nostalgic feelings, but also embarrassing ones. Seems like older me got anxious attachment and my only goal in life was to fill my loneliness with a boyfriend. As long as he was my type and was interested in me, I got limerence which I mistook for love. 

Seeing my posts from 2012 with my ex-boyfriend made me feel really happy. It was almost a good relationship. But everything happened too fast, and just as quickly as it began, it ended.

I'm still travelling to Japan every year, but it lost it spark. 2019 was also see year it opened my eyes. I was in a not healthy relationship and it ended soon. Then Corona happened. If I ever wanted a good, healthy and loving relationship, I had to change myself. 

2019 Ikebukuro

I've started to read the book Attached and learned about attachments. It took me 1 year and now I get this result when I do the quiz. 

I felt at peace being alone, and I was happy with myself. Guess the 30s will be my happy spiritual awakening decade. Soon I engulfed in lots of hobbies. Drawing, photography, felting, piano, knitting and now sewing.

Spring 2021, I got a little bit too much engrossed in the anime Castlevania. The reason was him 😝

A video on youtube popped up about reality shifting  and I wanted to try it because, you know, it would be funny to hang out in the Castlevania world. Tried all the methods for 3 or 4 months till I was giving up, and it didn't work. But soon  after, a miracle happened!

I got to know a guy who looked just like him, and even his personality was similar. I will write more about this next time. Not only that, but I think I manifested him without knowing.

I wasn't interested in him at first, but soon he fell in love with me. I felt that he was the right one.

More about this in another blogpost 

P.S. I'm writing this from a new account. This is the new me :)!